Being out of work with literally nowhere to go has been a strange series of highs and lows. In the first few days, I was trying too hard to be productive, starting a laundry list of life improving habits to make the most of my new windfall of time. I wasn’t taking time to process the life altering events occurring around me. This led to a lot of irrational frustration with my inability to essentially, feel better. “I’m eating carrots, why am I still feeling stressed out?” is an example of how ridiculous I was getting.
After reading a number of articles by various mental health experts, I decided I needed to give myself a break. I spent a week binging TV, eating Oreos, and mourning the end of life as I knew it. I paused myself. By the next Monday, I was ready to ease back into a productive routine of writing, exercising, and finishing existing projects around my house. I started some free online courses. I still watch a lot of TV.
Today I received notice from my employer that I’m being called back to work. They have coyly phrased it as a project without an end date, but I’ll take what I can get. Hopefully, with our state’s stay at home order expiring the first week of May, it will be permanent.
How are you doing?